This is literally what I did right now. I couldn’t think of any other heading, and this seemed to be a suitable one. I’ve thought about the idea of writing a blog for a long time, but didn’t really get into it. Part of me was really scared to share everything with the outside world, and the other part, well, that part was just not good with technological stuff.
The thing that plagues us all! The one that makes us and breaks us, LOVE!!!. I fell in love as well, with a guy I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I literally planned my whole life with him. I loved and cared for him deeply, but it all fell apart. And all it took was liquor and bad friends. That was a tough breakup, which hit me hard. But, the funny thing, even though he goes around telling stories about me to others, I still love him, I don’t think I’ll ever stop. I guess what’s different is that I choose not to acknowledge it now. I still wait to get a text from him, I feel happy when he sends it, but I don’t reply. I’m scared to break all over again.
Dating and being in a relationship is hard. It doesn’t even take you seconds to bounce back if you were dating, but it takes time to recover when you were in a relationship.